I Want to Know You God!

story-5Right after high school I attended Multnomah Bible College in Portland, Oregon. Now you might think, “Wow, Bible college, pretty holy dude!” But unfortunately, if it’s possible to hang out with the wrong crowd at Bible college, I did just that. I was neither serious with my studies nor with my relationship with God. You see, I had accepted Christ as my Savior, so I was “in”. I had my “ticket” into heaven. What more did I have to do? What more did God want from me? I had a relationship with God, but he seemed somehow distant and irrelevant to my everyday life.

Still, there were aspects of Bible college I really enjoyed—especially the relationships I had built with friends. So after the first semester, when my money had run out, I was crushed because I couldn’t continue. I remember wondering why God didn’t provide for my tuition like he had for other students. Having to leave school just didn’t make sense to me. Why would God allow this to happen? Isn’t going to Bible college a good thing to do?

When I left Multnomah, I still owed them tuition from the last semester and I needed to pay off my bill quickly. My brother invited me to work at a feed mill in Minneapolis, Minnesota, that a friend of ours managed. I applied there and they hired me into the lowest job at the mill, “end-man.”

As end-man I loaded and unloaded trucks and boxcars of 25, 50 and 100 pound sacks of feed all day long. Work in the feed mill was grueling! When I started it was January in Minnesota. I remember a week long period of minus 33 degrees every night with highs in the minus 20’s and the warehouse was not heated. The arctic wind would blast through the drafty warehouse, numbing our toes and fingers. The only way to keep warm was to work hard and fast. On breaks we retreated to the basement to huddle around the boiler that heated the offices.

I’m sure today that the conditions under which we worked would not be tolerated by OSHA! The only safety training we got was the order, “Don’t get hurt!” And all day long we breathed in whey and milk replacer dust. Handling the bags was so hard on gloves that we went through a pair of cloth gloves daily. Leather gloves lasted a week.

But it was in the middle of these harsh working conditions that God got my attention. Two of the other guys working there at the time had recently come to Christ out of the hippy movement. They were so in love with Jesus Christ, with each other and others that it showed prominently in everything they did. On breaks each would pull a tattered New Testament out of his pocket and devour the Word with a hunger I had never experienced. And the respect and love they showed the rough, multi-ethnic workforce at the feed mill was nothing short of Christ-like.

After watching these two followers of Christ for a few weeks, I went home one night and fell down on my knees next to my bed and cried out to God. I asked him to forgive my complacency and apathy toward him and I begged him to grant me the same love for him that I saw my two co-workers exhibit. My life has never been the same since! I felt like I had entered into a personal adventure with God!

I discovered that God wants to be intimately involved in all areas of our lives. And when we trust him and recognize his hand at work in everything we do, life truly is an adventure with him. “And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.” (Hebrews 11:6)

©2009 Rob Fischer


1 Heath McInnes { 09.13.09 at 3:28 am }

So what happened? Did you make enough money to pay off your tuition fees and start attending again? H 🙂

2 Rob { 09.23.09 at 3:50 am }

I did pay off my tuition, but God had other plans for me for a while before I could start school again! Stay tuned…